Tuesday, January 26, 2010
and i hast moved.blacknw.tumblr.com by Dan 10:10 PM
i need a reason to stay, a reason to believe, a reason to keep at it.
damn it.
fucking useless.
some days i make it through
and then there's nights that never end by Dan 1:00 AM
Monday, January 25, 2010
new favourite song of mraz? i think so.
because I'm crazy like the rest of us
but I'm crazier when I'm next to her by Dan 9:50 PM
there are so many words that there are none. by Dan 2:03 AM
Sunday, January 24, 2010
still haven't started on fa and stats homework, am 2 chapters behind on bizlaw, and theres an 10% fa quiz on tuesday i havent even started studying for.add to that the need to train for ippt because i am pathetically unfit right now.
desperate for changing
starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
chasing after you
I'm hanging by a moment by Dan 9:50 PM
ns men interview was interesting.
im tired. lots of work to catch up on.
did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there? by Dan 12:38 AM
Thursday, January 21, 2010
assignment due tomorrow at 5pm, and i havent even got the textbook to do the questions. i'll have to buy the book tomorrow morning and rush it out.but then i have a 12-315 lesson. nice. what a bite in the ass by procrastination. oh well.
spent the whole of bizlaw trying to do the adrace website. will continue during tomorrow's statistics lesson.
also got utterly raped for asking a damn stupid question. looked like a bloody idiot.
since i don't have the txtbook, i can't do the questions tonight, i might as well dota after this and screw homework.
i can foresee my grades slipping even further this sem. oh well. to hell with it.
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
lifehouse is awesome.
if life is but a play, maybe we all should have scripts. so that we know what to say and what to do and what to expect.
because now i really dont. by Dan 11:42 PM
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
and then it starts raining at this hour.the wind, the music, the sounds of rain, the night.
three letters missing. by Dan 12:38 AM
looking through runawaytrain's old stuff, and came across this.
Lifehouse - Breathing
Cause I’m hanging on every word you said,
And even if you don’t wanna speak tonight
Thats alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to,
Sit outside heaven’s door and listen to you breathing
That’s where I wanna be yeah by Dan 12:08 AM
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
想听你那边的空气有什麽精采的话题
你还是
温柔给我婉转的距离
伪装我自己
透明的叹息
最后
还是我的秘密 by Dan 9:48 PM
spending the late nights on dota and youtube and tumblr. what a thoroughly uneventful weekend.
early morning lesson, and i'm still up. oh well.
i like britain's got talent. it's much better than the pile of hogwash that is american idol.
choice is what we always want, but when it comes down to it, i think the absence of choice really makes it easier much of the time.
listening to sappy songs and reading mlia.
waiting for something, knowing theres nothing.
decisions.
riffs and distortions. what an escape.
by Dan 1:04 AM
Saturday, January 16, 2010
after all this timei was just a funny little footnote stuck at the bottom of the page
never meant to be part of the story. by Dan 2:27 PM
Monday, January 11, 2010
fucking horrible day. sigh.long day tomorrow. and i have yet to get started on the homework due tomorrow.
i still can't believe i lost just like that.
even in my dreams i cant escape.
此刻脚步 会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远 by Dan 6:30 PM
Sunday, January 10, 2010
i got a new phone. yay. nokia e63. the nokia qwerty phone everyone has. the cheap version, anyways. couldnt manage to find a pouch for it in 4 handphone shops though. anyone?ran 6km today. almost died doing so. damn bloody fucking unfit. zzz.
can't seem to get enough rest lately, although i spend much of my time lazing around at home.
is there a problem if you're 21 but looking forward to retirement?
shit i think im losing my marbles
Where can you run to escape from yourself? by Dan 9:05 PM
Thursday, January 7, 2010
books i want to read.A Clockwork Orange
Catch 22
1984
Every Single Gregory Maguire Book
LAST 2 SLIDES OF BIZLAW COME ON THIS LESSON END ALREADY by Dan 6:41 PM
school has barely started and work work work is piling piling piling.
i really have to get off my lazy ass and start working working working.
some things never change. going to send cheng off later. and eat popeye's i hope. impromptu k session was fun but expensive. darn. broke broke broke.
focus. don't lose it now. by Dan 1:03 PM
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
rough draft is awesome.maybe someday i look back, all these will seem funny or dumb or ridiculous.
but right now, that is a little hard to imagine.
management comms was interesting. financial accounting was boring. upcoming bizlaw and stats. omg stats. horror.
how do you tell a loss if u nvr owned it?
Quiet is my loudest cry
And if it's healthier to leave you be
May a sickness come and set me free
Kill me while I still believe that you were meant for me by Dan 3:49 PM
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
You know that feeling?That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it will mean that such a thing is still possible?
I want to believe that.
nick n norah's infinite playlist is an amazing film.
this is in all possibility gay and unmasculine and pussy and what have you, but i have totally fallen in love with this tumblr, and this tumblr, and this tumblr.
thats just a few among many others. makes me want to migrate to tumblr for easy following. maybe one day when i get off my lazy ass.
unless you can say no, i can't stop. by Dan 12:11 AM
Monday, January 4, 2010
我们重复沉默这样子单方面的守候 还能多久
But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it wasn't said to you
You touch me for a little while
and all my fragile strength is gone
No matter what I say or do
I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone
When I sleep
You're everywhere
But when I wake
You're never there
So many blogs, pictures, words, texts, articles, news, posts, entries about lovers and being in love.
what of the loveless?
for once, I really, really have no idea what to do and where to go. by Dan 12:59 AM
Friday, January 1, 2010
and i spent the last hours of 2009 and the first hours of 2010 on garena, on dota, with other like-minded gamers who can't give a shit about the festive celebrations.ok, who am i kidding. we are losers who weren't invited to any sort of party. LOL.
oh wells. back to my roots. geeky online gaming ftw.
back to the roots is good i guess. that's where you first found yourself. for better or for worse.
should i just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads nowhere?
or would it just be better not to know. feeling like pandora's box was ripped open.
but even as pandora's evils were released, there was hope, wasn't there?
and yet, in one iteration of pandora's box, the ancient Greeks seemed to regard hope as dangerous as the rest of the evils, which was why it was sealed in pandora's box in the first place.
Perhaps every accidental cluster of people has a short period of grace, in between the initial shyness and prejudice on one hand and the eventual repugnance and betrayal on the other.
Wicked is a terrific read. many thanks to lun for the reccy.
some days all i wanna do is to fall into bed with a good book, hear the rain patter inccessantly outside the window, and just let my thoughts assail me. school's starting in 5 days, and i can't say i am glad. till then at least i can still look forward to cytan's 22nd.
perhaps.
just realised that this entry is so disjoint and without coherence.
like everything else.
happy new year then.
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other? by Dan 2:21 AM